Dearest Daughter,

And so begins my journal to you….

It’s late, everyone is asleep - except me. I am a night owl, this is my time of relaxation, when all is quiet and peaceful in the house. Today has been a hard day, even with the highest intentions of being productive with a great attitude.

All I completely accomplished was raising the blinds in my room and putting away the ironing board! From there, the computer messed up and took way too much time with phone techs. The piano tuner came, which took another 3 hours from our day…. The house is still a mess - due to 3 little ones destructing quicker than I can ‘construct’ and a teething baby that wants to be held a LOT! But so is the life of a mother.

The reality is, it’s not the things that get seen that are the most important - it’s what I invest in your lives. This is the hardest thing the Lord has ever given me to do. I can’t always see any progress, I just have to walk in faith - trusting Him as my guide.

The one lesson that kept coming to mind today as a wish for your future is that I prepare you to set your mind to serving the Lord at an early age and begin that work while you are still young and available. Prepare yourself in whatever role God leads you to - whether wife, mother, or servant of the King. Minister to others, offering yourself to those in need as you learn life skills.

You see, once you become married (if that’s the Lord’s plan for you), you will no longer be as free to serve the Lord in more public ways, as you will then be tied to your husband. I never understood how much truth there was to the verses in the New Testament regarding this until after I was married.

Then after marriage, should it be God’s will that you have children, you will have even more responsibility in your home. Don’t get me wrong, I see each one of you children as a special blessing that I am so grateful to the Lord for giving me. What I am saying is that there are times when I feel I accomplish little to nothing, but this is really only a worldly/ fleshly feeling.

I know that I am raising up children to have a love and devotion to their Saviour, and pray that God fills in where I fall short in your lives.

There will be days like today, when I broke down in tears because I felt so overwhelmed - so over my head in responsibility. I pray that the Lord grant me wisdom to handle the issues that arise between you 4 little ones, and the love and grace to respond properly.

I pray for a calm spirit - one that causes you to see Him when you see me. I want to be lost - but really found in Him. Dearest daughter, I pray that He also develops in you a quiet, meek spirit. That you seek His face and HIs will in every single thing you think, speak, and do. Always asking yourself ”would Jesus do this?” and “would the Lord be pleased in what I’m doing?”.

These questions have always been deeply engrained in my mind, and are a wonderful guide the Holy Spirit can use in your life.

Dearest Daughter, I pray your memories of me will be full of love - just as my love for you overflows! For you see, my daughter, you are the only daughter I have right now - and this makes you all the more special to me. I cherish each moment the Lord has given me with you!

Love,

Mommy

My heart has struggled with what do to with Heaven In Our Homes. What was a place for me to write out what God has taught me/ is teaching me became something to keep up. I felt tied down to a posting routine; I saw that I began writing not only for myself. I am far from qualified to ‘teach’ others how to be a Godly wife and/ or mother (though it is my desire to be one!). So now things are changing just a tad bit - and this is it.

This blog is now a place where I am simply writing my own journal entries to my daughter. This is where I’ll share what I believe with her, why I believe it, and why God is essential in bringing any sense of heaven into a home.

I want something for her to look back and see where God has brought me from. I’m far from perfect - as a wife or as a mother - but I’m living my life as I believe God is calling me to. I’m teaching my children to view everything in light of what God would say or do, or if He would be pleased with us or not.

I’m not debating or judging anyone/ anything - I’m not here to point fingers, cause there would still be 4 pointing back at myself.

Anyone is welcome to visit this blog at anytime, and I pray that maybe the Lord would use my trials and lessons to bring others closer to Him. From here on out - it’s “Dear Daughter”!

Candace

Just an FYI - I have no idea what’s going on with my websites, but am aware that the blog posts are scrambled. When things slow down for our family I’ll look into what’s wrong. Please keep us in your prayers as we seek God’s direction as to where He’s leading our family to live, as we seem to keep hitting brick walls everytime we turn around.