I just wanted to take a minute to share with you all that I will be taking a break from posting here on a more permanent basis. While the Lord did open doors for me to share here on HIOH for a while, He’s closing them right now.

We are loving every minute of our newest addition, now 3 months old! We are also finally about to move, but not to the land that was once our dream. Circumstances changed our dreams, and the Lord opened other doors for us that we are excited to go through soon!

His provision over us through this all has been wonderful! In fear at times, I’ve fought what seemed to be unbearable issues for our family. God has graciously used those to direct us in our new path, showing me that I need to quit trusting in my own plans.

He’s used some hard lessons to show me my dependance on money vs. Him. He’s used wrong actions to teach me to focus on Him vs. others. It’s been a rough 4 months or so, and I still struggle with things - but I’m seeing daily how much more I need Him than I could’ve ever imagined.

Scripture says that Satan is a “roaring lion looking for someone to devour” (1 Peter 5:8) - this was in a devotion my dad forwarded me today. This was followed with Psalms 23 - ‘though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, Thou art with me, thy rod and thy staff they comfort me’.

Our family has been under attack the past few months, and seeing this devotion today encouraged me. It only makes sense that the enemy would want to attack us, because we are trying our best to raise up a Godly seed and live our lives for God!

We haven’t understood why certain things happened to us, and have cried out to the Lord about these matters. So, this next part from Psalms is encouraging - He never leaves us, He’s right there with us through it all!

I’ve had to let go of my hold on things, seeing that God is the only true Judge. I’ve had to let go of my hold on money, and surrender it once again to God. Where we’ve lost money, see it as God’s money and allow Him to restore it once again as we are faithful stewards of it.

In closing, I have to let go of some of ‘my’ things, such as blogs. I love to write, to journal what the Lord is teaching me - especially so one day my daughter will be able to look back and learn from my mistakes. 

And while I’ve loved writing here, I now truly believe God is calling me to spend more time focusing on the needs of my children and husband. I have less time now to write, and while I do love it, it keeps me up way… too late at night. You might find an occassional post here and there, but these will be rare, at least for the next year.

I will continue posting on www.Sonbeams.com though, and invite you to join me there!

Candace

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A lot has been happening in the past week, and this hymn “Only Trust Him” as well as the 23rd Psalm have been on my heart and mind constantly! While we’ve been on a roller coaster that’s giving us the ride of our lives, we know that God is directing our paths.

Our house is still set to close next week, or the next - and we are once again back to nowhere to go. The Lord has been putting a burden on our hearts for some reason, telling us “no” to everything we try to work out. We do have land, but it seems like God is pulling us elsewhere - we just don’t know where!

I had mentioned on Facebook that we found a trailer, a triple wide at that, and were under contract on it. Well, once again, the Lord just didn’t give us peace about it. We don’t know why, but we weren’t able to rest. The wonderful couple that owned the trailer released us from the contract, and I can say we were truly blessed to have met this Christian couple - for more than one reason.

Although we left there empty handed, we had peace about letting it go. Have you ever tried to do something against the Lord’s promptings? You just don’t rest and have peace - this is where we’ve been - so though we’re not being ‘wise’ in the world’s eyes by having no roof over our family’s head in less than a month, there’s a strange peace.

So, we had to once again resume our search, and have since found another trailer - but we have to order it. Now, we only have 3 weeks to get out of our home, but God doesn’t seem to be giving us a green light to order this trailer. Okay Lord, WHAT are we supposed to do? WHERE are we supposed to go?

And all I hear is to wait and trust Him. Strangely enough, God is granting me more peace when I sit back and wait vs. trying to find something or work out something. No, we have no clue where we’ll be living in 3 weeks - but GOD does!

Only trust Him, only trust Him, only trust Him more…. HE will save you!

I can’t wait for Him to unfold this story more and be able to testify of His provisions for our family - I’m really so excited!!!

Jehovah Jireh, my provider, His grace is sufficient for me - My God shall supply all my needs according to His riches in glory!

And a final song God has had me singing today -

Our God is an awesome God, He reigns from heaven above with wisdom, power, and love, our God is an awesome God!

I’ve been having to quote a lot of Scripture and sing a lot of songs lately, to keep my mind on the Lord - though I have His peace, I’ll admit I still feel the storm! But it’s great to have a Shepherd that’s taking care of us!